Taiki-la-shot

To my soulmate/everything,

Thanks for being there for me for more then a decade. You, from a motherly cat to become a member of my family. We treated you like another one of us and just like you did. You love the comfort inside the house and the wildness outside. Fighting with countless cats so mark down your territory which is my house. You are the best thing that god had ever gave me beside my family. Remember the times when i was stuck outside my house as i lost my keys and you were always with me through the lonely hours still someone came home. When mum was scolding me and you stood beside her and meow-ed at me? When you almost slept with me every night on the same bed and only to return to your sleeping place when you saw that my eyes are closed? The moment when both of us shared the same pillow to sleep? The countless time when you chased me around the house when i took your can food away? When i am in a foul mood, you will be there for me no matter what happens. You never got angry with me despite me always bullying you and disturbing you. When i am watching TV on the sofa, you would either come and rest on my legs or you would knock your head against mine to catch my attention and show your love. you are a shy cat who would always hide yourself in a corner of my house in the presence of strangers. you hate the can food like whiskers/frieskies and such. But you love the brand "Angel". May you now be like an angel now in the sky watching upon us.Many that have saw you before told me that you are a beauty which i absolute thought too.You are so adorable and cute! Your sleeping position really got me laughing at times. You would copy how i usually sleep at night and have all sort of wierd position coming up. At times when you misbehave, i would hit you hard and i am really sorry for that. i deeply regretted my actions towards you. You hate people carrying you around as you would feel very umcomfortable. There was a period of time when you were named a "pig" as your body mass is close to a pig. you were lazy and do not want to move around. you would use your head to grind against my body which is a sign of love. 10 years and i had not gave you a name and now i shall call you and remember you as "Angel". 
You were so weak these few months and despite me bringing you to the vet, you were still not well. you have been struggling even to walk around. It really breaks my heart. I kept telling mum that i will bring you to the vet again last week but i did not do it. you were not your actual self. The active and playful cat had evolved to become a legthagic and weak cat. You did not eat for the past 3 days and things were not going well.
This morning you got into a terrible spasm/fit and i was crying for you to hold on. Thankfully you did. We immediately rushed you to the clinic and blood test was taken. The vet said that never had she saw any animal with such a low red blood counts in the blood. I only wanted you to recover and was referred to the animal hospital. Doctor were called down and they said your chance of survival was slim even after treatment. You have to undergo a blood transfusion but at the hospital, there was no cat with the same kind of blood that matches yours. You were hanging on in a oxygen mask. The treatement would cost up to a few grands and my parent were willing to pay but there was no way you could be treated as there was no blood of the same kind of yours. I went out and got my dad in to discuss with my mum the solution to it. I was sobbing and crying non stop while waiting for their decision. In the end, the choosed the hard way. They can't bear to leave you like i did but that was the only way. To have you put to sleep. I went in to see you for the last time and i was crying and touching you. Your kept your vision on me and never left me even when i left the room. You seems to have countless things to say to me but you can't. The lime green syringe which is meant to put you to sleep lies next to you and i was devestated. I wants to try my best to stop all your suffering and enjoy time together with you. But, it was impossible. i patted you, talk to you asking you to have a good rest and may you have a better life in another world. Tears were pouring and many people saw it. Such a big guy crying over a cat? Fuck them. It's not just another cat. You are my everything. i gave you my last kiss on your forehead like what i always did and greet you goodbye. I never stayed in the room. I don't want to see you leave and so i went out. Daddy and Mummy said that you left the world peacefully without a struggle. And you were burried by me,daddy and mummy in granny's place.
When you were placed below the soil, you were sleeping so soundly and sweetly. That was the last moment i could ever see you anymore. we covered you in blankets and have the soil placed above you with flowers and decorations around you. Dad got a deep cut which requies 3 stiches which digging up the soil.We really tried our best. You will always be in my heart no matter what. I can never find another you in this world. My angel, from the bottom of my heart i really love you. i cannot bear to let you go but i have to so as to stop all your sufferings. Forgive me for that. Back at home as i walked past the spot you always sleep, i started crying like a wimp. i miss you so much.. It takes me so much of tears to finish what i wants to tell you. May you live in a better world miles above the sky and be like an angel. Everyday and Everynight, i will be missing you so do Daddy and Mummy. Please rest in peace and be safe in everything.
I LOVE YOU ANGEL!
I MISS YOU ANGEL!
i really wants this to be a dream and i really wants you to come back!!!! i will exchange anything to have you back with me........there is no way i could stop my tears from flowing..............
Goodbye.


Your best buddy,
with loads of Loves
Taiki

• I have my ego and pride. Should you attempt to corrupt it, you shall pay it in a way or another.
• Cheating money from my own friend is totally something i would never even think of. By assuming that i want to cheat off that few pathetic bucks from cheapo like you knowing that you are NOT WELL OFF is something sinful to do.
• If you think there is no need for you to pay when you never touch the liquor at all, then next time go zouk (if you have the money to) and tell the cashier that you are not drinking so you should get the entrance fee excluding the drinks cost.Or if you have not grind any girls(which is obviously those unwanted or have a "JIAO" looking face)  then ask zouk to refund the money to you.
• And don't fucking tell me you have paid that few bucks to me when i don't even bother to talk or take money to you. (Ask ben if i had request him to collect the money from you)
• If you think helping people to fund or "TAR" is to pay 10bucks for them when the bottle cost 200bucks sounds good and nice of you, i honestly think you have a REAL PROBLEM. you are just making yourself a cheapo and jerk. (why not you tar that 10bucks to some charity or feed your family members instead of making yourself a cheapo.) 
• If everyone is to come out and enjoy and have fun, everyone should be paying the equal amount of money. what makes you so special to say that since you didn't drink you don't pay? even ben who insist on not drinking fork out 20bucks for us.And this is what i meant by tar. not that 10bucks cheapo.
• So, because i volunteer to help find the place, negotiate with the boss for cheaper discount, getting you guys to a comfortable environment i have to settle everything for you? asking what you need to drink what is the amount you drink? my reply to you is FUCK OFF. i don't owe you a thing. It will be the greatest sin should i owe you anything.
• I am not very really loaded with cash nor i have an empty pocket. But at least i can afford to take out 20bucks and throw it in your face everytime i see you.
• If you could have admit your fucking mistake and shut the fuck up, i will be willing to pay 20bucks for you ANYTIME.
• Being defiant and not admitting you mistakes but instead pushing the blame to me that i cheated your "20bucks" will never do you good.
• You are well-known for being money-minded and can make a big fuss out of it.
• Even when you talks your word don't match at all!! First insisting that you have pass me the 20bucks and next saying that you think if you never drink, you should not pay.
• i hung my call on you not because that i am in the wrong but there is no need for any more conversation with someone like you.
• i will let the 20bucks tell everyone who you are and what you are made of.(maybe not just feathers but with droppings)
• it is not the first time such things had happened. getting into a quarrel with kenrick at bintan because you don't want to spend money to club and knowing very clearly that it is impossible for us to leave an animal back at the resort.
• Take it as i owe you something the previous life or that i am giving my friends face. I am not getting my hands dirty and ruined to touch a creature like you.Neither do i see the need to trouble people down by giving you a good lesson.

May you fly high high............LAN "JIAO" kia

point and laugh at me.
i loss to a whooping red lancer with HKS exhaust this noon on the straights right outside np.
once we turned out of np, it is a pedal to metal all the way till 13Xkm/hr when my balls started to shrink.
immediately hit the brakes. and the lancer zoomed past me.
i know i am not that slow but something must be hiding under the bonnet of his lancer. maybe a snail?
dekitted my injen cold air intake and revert back to stock. no more roar but pick up is definately faster.
i will be going all out to earn very penny i could for my oversea trip.
it is tiring and exhausted. slept for less then 5hours everyday for the past weeks.
failed 3 modules out of 4 and lucky is a borderline fail.
time to wake up and start planning on my life.
tml shall hit the gym and then shark's birthday celebration.

ciaos


P.S (Hiding behind the scene doing such things won't make you a hero in any way. a wimp maybe. but get this into the fucking brain of yours. i will take you on one on one anytime ,anyday. i need no protection or back up from my cousin or who ever. Come. try me. fuck your mum) 

i have to be back in school today for the boring shitty lesson again. but i can't wait to see my friends again!
Screw NP.. yucks!
assigned my tuition for my student to suck off their parent money for my upcoming trip.
called winki and chatted with her for like 30min? and she was on her way back to HK from ShenZhen.
My modem failed on me and i am gonna fucking dump it in the bin.
dropping from 3rd gear to 1st gear and cornering at 80km/h is sex.
but dun try this without suspension setup..


I LOVE YOU-------------------------> Civic fd1 / *******

of course i'm back from BKK!
free of swine flu so no worries.
quarrentine myself at home for 7 days.
nearly have my license suspended while tearing down clementi road last night at 150km/h with a TP right in front waiting for me.
sort of missing BKK and friends over there.
grown fatter and my muscles are shrinking.
determined to stay away from club so as to save my money.
will be flying for SIN-BKK-Tokyo(NRT)-BKK-SIN on Oct.
and maybe to HK in Sep.
This explains the need to save money.

The old dusty "P" plate left in my car boot for sometime is now offically in the bin.
1 year of driving, i learnt lots of things on the road and also in life.
24pts into my pocket from 11/6/09 and NO! i will not stunt around with it!!
4 papers for this common test. Finish 3 of them and 1 more to go.
Will be flying to BKK on Terminal 2 (SQ 972) at 10.30amMonday(15th June) to Wed(24th June)Terminal 2 (SQ975) at 4.25p.m for somethings.
It was finalised only today and i went ahead to book it.
For the 1st time, i am leaving my friends and family for that long time.
And i am not excited about it.
Being alone in a different world.
All i have is myself.
Taiki

been quite some time.
Busy? Not quite.. Lazy is the term for it.
Quite a number of thing happened for the past month.
Crashed my ride AGAIN!
My ride was in a total mess but at least, i'm done with all the repairs.
Back from Langkawi and KL 4days ago with my sec sch mates.
Skipped school for 3 days and travelled by Air asia to KL-Langkawi-KL-Sg
Trip was more of bonding then enjoying i guess.
And it sets me reflecting on myself as a person.
Was is pure Laziness/Stupidness or can't be bordered.
Friends of my age had either graduated from Poly or are currently in U while me, still slacking and fooling around in Poly.
I think, i am really unmotivated in a way and in some way, distracted by things.
But what really hurts is disappointing my parent everytime.
Been drinking almost everyday there as the drinks are dirt cheap.
2 friends were gone on alternate days.
i never imagine myself to dunk down 14bottles of beer in 4hours time.
Met new friends over there. ( 1 is a aussie living in England while another is a Papua New Guinea resuce minister)
And after so much of travelling experience at least to me, i find that it's not really the place  go to but instead, the people u meet)
Wei Ghang was back with me on a monday as he was having a bad rashes. And he received a letter from NS to have him inside Tekong with just 10days time that got him crying. Will be celebrating and meeting up this Sat with the peeps.
Will upload the 4GB plus amount of pic in FB and go in to detail on what i did over there when i'm free.
CT is 2 weeks away, and it means more late nights "studying".
Best of luck to my friends!
Ciaos.


**If the only way to forget you is to find another you, i'll try. I'm set to do it and at the same time, i'm confident to fail.

With the current situation about my car,
insurance are quoting me a much unreasonable rate.
despite the fact that it had serve me well for the past one year,
i knew very well it's just a luxury sedan and not a sports car.
i've threw in many grands to modify it for greater output,
letting most of the japanese sedan of the same class as mine smell smoke is daily affair,
but i'm not contented with the power and handling it is giving me.
i need a ride which allows me to use as a track car and also giving maximum fuel consumption.
(This is almost impossible)
after all research done, i've narrowed down my choice to basically 2 kinds of ride.
A old school Honda civic ( for its raw VTEC engine)
A turbo charged Nissan Silvia S13 (The weapon on track)

Seems easier said then done?
Let's do the maths now.

Road tax ( $1482/ year)
Insurance ($2k +/- year)
Carpark ($100 per month)
Petrol ($250 per month)
Tyres ($1000 per year)
Transmission ($1000 per year)
Wear and Tear ($500)


it adds up to $10,182 per year (without the loan and depreciation for the car)
and is around $848 per month. (without the loan and depreciation for the car)
So, in another word, i have to fork out around $1.6k every month for the car.
The number really gets me,

I've really gotta think through if this is the right choice for me to finance my interest in track.

It's been so LONG,
that i haven't seen your face...

Bet my 3 yrs on today.
Result was a draw. ( nothing positive nor negative)
Words were stuck upon my throat when i saw you.
Appreciate it when you still came out despite being tired.
Not much common topics between us like the past.
Glad to be your protective suit from other preying beast.
Day was ruined at PH but i swear this will be the last time i'll bring you there.
Thanks for accompanying me for supper.
As said, it not the venue but company that matters to me.
To sum up everything, thanks for the efforts.You drew a big smile on my face.

Volkswagen And Lexus Eventually Ran Into Elephant.

-You were a grade younger then me.
-We took the NA paths and got promoted to EX.
-You charmed every dudes in school.
-We hit off as casual friends through some introduction.
-As and when as far as i could remember, we will go JP after school to chill.
-You love stealing books under my table and draw anything u can think off.
(Even my handbook wasn't spared. The page which is your birthday was a nightmare )
-You always ask me to go away if i happens to have cigarette smell on me.
-Got a shocked when you came to school one day with YM in knee length socks and tuck your shirt all the way above your belly button!
-The DM were our best friend as we were always caught for anything you can think of)
(Tucking out your shirt is one of the usual reason)
-I was your punching bag till today!
(I'm not sick to let you punch as and when you want but if it can make you feel better, by all means)
-You went to Aus for a whole damn month.
(Our source of communication was the old school friendster. You sent at least 20 msgs to me in a month to encourage me to kick off the sticks. I did nothing to change the way i were but regret it till this day)
-On my last Wushu competition no one but you came to support.
(You, along with yi min came to support and got turned on upon seeing my coach(Vincent . And went "GAGA" over him. I lost my final match and you were there to encourage me till the night falls)
-On our "O"levels year, we went to the same tuition and you were the smart alex of the class.
-I got hit up and went in to a RS and so do you.
(I may have the best ex-gf who treats me like a king but the feeling is just not there.)
-The night before i was flying to HK, saw you at Bukit Batok MRT station at 2a.m with your dad.
(Your dad must be shocked to see his daughter knowing people like me! Haha!)
-At our second year in poly, i decide to text you again for a meet up.
(There were you, me, chai luan and ym. We went to CQ and dine at a high class japanese restaurant followed by bungee(forced by no other then YM). We swore that we will never wanna be threw up in the sky by that machine anymore.)
-On your 18th birthday, i went to you house right before midnight wanting to give you a surprise not knowing that YM and CL were there too.
(Planned for the day 6months before and despite starving, i wanted to get you the necklace which caught my eyes. But the efforts did pay off with that priceless smile of yours upon receiving it.)

i'm not complaining and instead, recalling the great memorises i had with you.
(PALS, DON'T EVER TAKE THING FOR GRANTED AND REGRET IT WHEN IT'S ALL GONE)



Time flies, Feeling don't. And to me, love is never about having but more to the happiness of you.
From the bottom of my heart, i wish you happiness and be assured that i will be the cushion right behind you and the days of waiting is still counting on. 



My Love,
Taiki

Good Friday.
How "Good" can it be?

-With the TX war waiting to happen anytime.
-With my car insurance being jacked up to $2k+ for the previous accident.
-With school term starting in like one week.
-With my broken heart in a dilemma.
-With my pathetic bank account hitting the well.
(Oh wells, i surrender to fate and shall let it decide on my paths. )


Kenrick,Tommy,Russell and Shark will be back tonight from the "Land of Sex".
(Hope they will be back safely without unwanted diseases. HAHA!)
Might be heading down zouk later with i duno should say TX or Rojaks.
Finally, traded in my ever breaking down Giorgio Armani phone for a Google phone.
Gotta hit the gyms next week as i'm SHRINKING ever since i'm back from BKK!
I'm putting my 3 years at stake for this weekend.(May i be blessed)

And lastly, i'd like to say that.You better think with ur brain filled head instead of your dickhead. When lust overrules you, is the day you'll hit the floor (PAINFULLY).




(Volkswagen And Lexus Eventually Ran Into Elephant)  - I Love